How did I go from not having a summer job all the way to choosing between three different world locations for a summer internship? I shouldnt even be complaining right now though, so happy about it!

I just want to get away from America and work in a land where I know basically nothing about but know everything about.

only because I feel like I’m being lied to.

The times we’ve spent together, the moments we’ve made together, the times you’ve been there for me, the times I’ve been there for you seems to be all a waste. I just wish I could go back to the point where I knew we would have taken separate routes and changed the words that were exchanged or thrived to have become a bigger person in doing the right things. It honestly feels lonelier without you and I just want you back in my life.

All of my change i spent on you. Where has the times gone, baby its all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

Tumblr makes me procrastinate so much. I could have finished my essay by now and started to pack, but nooo, I’m still on the introduction portion of my essay.

Marketing: 93%; which is confirmed.
Accounting: 89.03%; which means this final counts and its mosdef going to be my hardest.
Studio: 89.50%; without the participation portion which should boost my grade to a solid A.
Structures: 91.54%; which means the final counts as well and unfortunately, its the same day as my accounting final.
Design & Society: 90%; without extra credit and the curve which should boost my grade a significant amount but I still got to write my paper and take the final (which should be easy).

If my finals all go well, I should end up with a 4.0 gpa but the stress of borderline grades are riding over me right now.

I feel empty, I feel useless. My life just seems pointless and I honestly dont know how I ended up on this road. Last year this time, I was the happiest person in the world and nothing could put me in a bad mood. Now, I just sit here and think how I’m just one big failure.